l@st D@y Of 2009

Yup..Today is the last day of 2009...
So...hope that it won past...But sometime hope that it pass faster...
Dunno why..jz felt wn to say it out all..
Mayb jz felt uncomfort with all those thing tat happen tis year..
This year..Nt very special...Nt very common..
Jz lost some1 n get a new 1..
Jz cn sy tat hope tat it will long last..
Sometimes...I like to compare...I knw I nt as gd as other...
I knw..I try to proof myself...But it seem...I cant gv u what u want..
I jz wan u to b happy...I jz hope we will have mre topic to talk about...
I din blame on u for the coldness..I jz blame on myself for dunno hw to make u happy...make u comfort..
I jz cnt do it...I jz dunno hw.. I tried...I do anything I should...
I jz lik to eat vinegar... You say that I lik to eat vinegar from those that were impossible...
Ya...Sometimes I admit..I jz lik to think nonsense...
When i alone..
I jz lik to think nonsense...Not juz the feeling of scare...
Began to think everything...I hav no confident on myself..
Compare to other...I still jz an beginner...Dunno wat to do..
Jz knw some nonsense...Talk nonsense..
Yup...I duno hw to make some1 happy...Juz knw hw to make 1ppl sad..
I jz knw to release my stress to some1 without thinking their feeling...

Began to think..If that time when  u call me to go to die..I reli go out and BANG...Dunno hw was i nw...But nw I reli hope i din exist...

Jz...No confident...Yup..I no confident...I jz make u sad..Unhappy..Angry...Anything tat negative...
It jz wat I knw to do..
Felt so...FAIL...FAILURE IN THE LIFE...
Mood down...Yup..
I think I gonna past this New Year with tears..
Mayb it will make me feel more comfort...
Tomorrow will b a new year and a new start for everyone..
Hope a new start 4 me too..
Jz let it b natural..I always say it to other ppl...Today...I gonna say it to myself..
But...Can I?
Suddenly...I knw the feeling of them when they ask can I...
I still din improve anything in my life...Doesnt own a good result in any exam...
Doesnt own anything...In my life...I din own anything...
Felt I reli FAIL...DAMN FAIL...
Always say I will improve myself..I jz knw...I jz knw that I jz knw hw to say but doesnt knw hw to do it..
A DUMMY!!!!
Yup..Even a STUPID!!!!!!...
Haas...I cant blame on any1...I jz wan to b the special 1...But I cant...I jz try to get into ur life...But I cant...
Did I suit u?Began to ask myself...Did I?Did I have the power to own u?
Or...It jz all an imagination...A beautiful imagination...I jz hope I won wake up...But...
Nice dream just will remain as a dream...Reality still is the most real in life...
I jz wan u to b happy...Dun always no mood...I knw...Everytime u no mood...It jz comes from me...
I m the ppl that make u unhappy...no mood....i jz wan to love u more n more...
I jz wan u to b happy n happy when the days go by...
Is it that my exist...Make u Unhappy?
Isit that my everything had any demage on ur mood...
I jz ...dunno...I began to scare...Scare everything...Scare...Horror...
Anything...I just start to avoid from it...
I jz hope I can always faces everything with a smile...I jz hope I won have a bad temper..
In this new year...
I jz hope u happy..
I jz hope I won have a bad temper..
I jz hope that I can improve my everything...
Hope that it reli will come true...
Yeah...
I will pass this new year with tears...Dun ask why..
Jz blame on myself...












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Christmas-->24<----->27 Dec~

ARGH!!!!

jz come back frm KL jor..

aikkzzzz>.<...

so...... 

SHE BU DE...

 1st time pass christmas wif lover><

er...

u gt many my 1st time jor T_T

so...HANG FOK~~XDD

er...

24 is christmas eve><

bt....cnt pass wif her...

cz..tat nite i on busTT

she lerhx><

go GUAN SHUI at the forum ther without tellingTT..

nth to sy lorhx>< 

tat nite jz sit on the bus then slpt jor~~

haha..reli is a pig><(lik laopo sy de)

er..

tat bus damn slow..

bt nt bad..at least its SAFE~

(cz the news on the newspaper at 27 DEC so SCARY...TT)

cant imagine abt it...

er...

we reach ther at 5.15 a.m in the morning..

sooooo MANY ppl on the roadside ad...

aikzz 

 then~~

we reach my aunt home at 5.30~

chit chat~~wakaka..

so...li hai de them...

then...

er...

gt a gd news from my mom~~

there a room in Genting~~wakaka..

so happy when heard abt it..

they went up there at 8 morning..

din slpt tiok..

me lerhx~~

faster ask some1 ad larhx~~wakaka..

so nan de... cn go ther to overnight..

and wif some1 special..

then...

YEAH~~she on~ 

we cn go together..

bt nt vry happy...

cz gt EDISON..(light bulb)..TT

sad...wat also cnt doTT

wn hug u tight also cnt...

soooo sad...

bt...

luckily..we also gt time together~

so lik to hug her~~(imagine-ing)

miss herTT

er..

actually..

i lazy to tyoe in eng lerhxTT

my com had go into hospital 4 2days ad T..T

it dunwn come back liaoTT

sad..

wait it come back

i update in chinese version larhx><

okok???

ok har~~

ok larhx~XDD

jz all for nw..

MISS-INg My laopo~~

miss her sound

miss her smile

miss her kiss

miss the hug 

In-Love-ING

只想

我只想让你知道..

你不是影子..

你是我爱的人..

我可以很肯定的对你说..

我不想失去你..

你是我老婆..

我接受不了你说你不是..

我很爱你..

真的很爱你..

知道我没有给你安全感了..

我没有做到你要的..

让你害怕..

让你不安了..

但是..

我真的

不想失去你..

不要走..

好不好..

我要你..

就只要你..

郑缇尉...

我只要你..

可以吗..

你是你..

他是他..

我爱的是你

郑缇尉..

跟她没关系..

我只要你..

我真的很爱你..

不要没有你..

别走..

好不好..

永远的失败者

失败者...

就是永远的失败者...

连答应的事也做不到..

只是件轻而易举的事...

都做不好了...

更何况是其他的...

你没理我..

我一个人..

开始乱想..

都在想..

有一天..

会不会因为这样..

你选择了离开..

有一天..

会不会因为我是个失败者..

而不要我了..

我很烦...

烦到有时让你吃不消吧？

我错了...

我..

一直都做不到你要的...

或许你会因为这样..

而不要我了吧...

或许吧....

心在滴血...

当我需要你时..

你总在我身旁..

但是...

在你需要我时...

我却...

不在你身旁...

永远的失败者

就是我...

SHIT!!!!

YEAH~

FXCK UR MOTHER ASS~

FXCK U GUARD!!!

NO MANNER GUARD

DUN SIMPLY WALK INTO A WOMEN TOILET!

DUN MAKE ME C U NEXT TIME~

IF NT~

HIAK HIAK~

THERE WILL B A NICE MOVIE TO C

HAHA

PLX~

MAKE SURE UR MOM HAD TEACH U WAT IS MANNER!!

DUN SIMPLY COME IN WITHOUT KNOCKING!

DUN SIMPLY PUSH IN WHICH U ARE A MAN

OR A FUCKING MAN!

NEED TO B FUCK??

FIND A GAY!!!!

PLX LARHX~

RESPECT US!!!!

K?

DUN THINK TAT U IS OLDER THAN U CN DO ANYTHING U WN!

K?

OR U NEED TO B FUCK?

THER ARE SERVIS ANYWHERE~

OR U WN ME TO INTRO 4 U WHICH BETER?

U WN TO KNW?

K

 I TELL U~
GO BACK HOME N FUCK URSELF!!!!

YEAH~

ISNT IT A GD DECISION?

WA..

N DUN 4GT~

TO TAKE THE PICTURE DOWN~

I WN TO C IT AT YOUTUBE~

WAHAHA..

DUN 4GT TO TAKE IT WIF A NICER M.PIXEL CAMERA~

YUP~

i think tat all i wn say~

hiak hiak~

jz wn to release the madness towards some SHIT MAN

although nw still nt reli calm down~

tat all 4 nw==